My Love...

Have a long time I didn't have post any new blog already....Not busy...Not no feeling....Just don't know want how to describe my feeling now....What I'm doing now?I don't know....What I'm thinking now?I don't know....What I'm hoping now?I don't know....Why I'm started to don't understand myself already?@-@ suffering
I'm so weird...I'm agree....Sometimes I also will lose myself.Everytimes I'm also need control my feeling,I hate to let somebody know my real feeling....coz I'm scared...scared my feeling will change suddenly...I consent that I'll always change my temperature...Like now,actually i'm not so understand what I'm writing now....hope who you are viewing my post,you will know my feeling...Is it once you got getting this kind feeling?
Sometimes,i'll feel I'm stupid...Is it so childish when you'll always be hemmed in love problem.I'm started to feel so distressed on this troblesome things.I hate always environ on this problem.Love or don't love?Actually not take into my hands...Why still need think so much?What I must to make decide is when I just can give up....I'm not the 1st time to say I need to give up...But I'm still keep on be a stupid...be a crazy....Why I'm can't just become unrestrained abit?Giving up....is it so hard for me?I don't know....I'm really don't know....
I know I can't keep on be a stupid,be a crazy,but I can't do it easily.Give up....How many times I had say it.But finally also become a rubbish word.I'm still LOVE....When I want to give up...Can I know is I want to cry 1st?or need to forget 1st?If you,you'll know what you need to do 1st?Is it still difficult?Love,let people satisfy,let people feel happily,let people think everything also wonderful...But Love also will make people tired,make people getting hurt,make people trouble,make people cry and finally I believe also will let people grow up....But why must make people the whole body is covered with wounds all over just can let people grow up?Why must let people always draw a lesson just can understand the doctrine?confusing@-@
Do you had love a person that he/she didn't love you anymore?You want to heard he/she say who he/she love....You need to see what action he done for the girl/boy....You need receive all the things,all the words that you don't want to receive....Why?Because you know you will get hurt,because you know your heart will pain,because you know your tears will falling....is it?