Secret

I'm back to my grandmom house yesterday.I feel so happy coz I can meet with my sis,cousin and friends.I can talk and share all my feeling inside my heart with them.In this weekend,my sis keep on accompany me and we had share a lot of things together.My smile is keep on appear on my face in this 2 days.^0^I'm really feel happy and easily at here.Its look like didnt have any troubles at here,just have our laughter.My cousin and friends also always show their funny action.It's let me smile until cant stop at all the time but the happy moments always will gone faster.I'm so treasure all of these moments coz I feel I can be a ''real yoyo'' during in these shorten moments.I no need to care who will blame me,I no need to care who will dun like me,I no need to care is it will let other ppl criticism bcoz of my attitude,my action,my topics.....I no need to care so much.I dun mind ppl say my view is pure,I dun mind ppl say I'm the one who can just bully me every time and.....I dun mind,I really dun mind...coz I feel happy that I can be a very simple girl at here,I can be myself at here.At the moments,everythings like not too important dy bcoz I know that I'm not alone now.T-T not cry...is*touching *^-^I really hate the life is too complex,too many troubles...It's let me wanna become a crazy dy.Why everythings cant become simple abit?Why my troubles cant be reduced?I'm not didnt try to cover it.Just I start to feel tired and toilful.I really scared oneday I will collapse bcoz of these troubles!!!!T-T
Sometime I will told myself dun think too much 1st.Any troubles need to solves also wait until next day....just let me think some happy matter now.I keep on to think tomorrow everything also will be solved and become better.But is nothing changes anymore.Even if I have to do my best to resolve it.I really feel wanna cry.Actually now I just know tears is not so precious in this kind of real world,real life...Tears are easy fall down.T-T I always think that as long as I try hard to cover my troubles then everything also can be fine after my exertion but the god and the luckily look like never stand beside me.All the troubles keep on appear in my life.I hate it!!!I really really hate it.I wanna to shout it out!!!Shouting loudly that who can help me now?who can lead me to a better way now?who can accompany to face all of it now?.......But I just can shout it in my heart.No one has given me any respond...T-T I'm feel so lonely and helpless when I face all of it alone.I'm so scared...feel scared~.~My heart become cold,my tears become usual on my face.I cant feel de temperature of my tears ,I cant feel any feeling that I had now.My heart is tired...Whether it is in which area...Its so tired dy........
Tonight,I'm still believe that tomorrow everything also can be solved and become better after I open my eyes.hopeless...GOOD LUCK...PLEASE STAND BESIDE ME!!!!!